I would like to admit to it, still.

[he rests his right elbow on the table, chin propped in his palm.]

...but if I intend to continue on as I have, I should keep it quiet, shouldn't I? Admitting to it makes me the best target for anyone else who wants to attack a god, and in this state, I...

[can't fight nearly as well.]

It weighs on me, but I have my work to consider as well. I still mean to do what I can to protect others, even like this, and I-- will be more effective right now if the others do not know.